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I am a 22 year old college graduate (hurray!!) who has two degrees (business and psychology). I am going to do the DCP in August because I dont want to grow up. I can't wait to be living in FL again in the happiest place on earth!! A cautionary whale: I talk about everyone and everything in this blog...my opinions are just that...opinions so take them at face value and if you don't like what I have to say...then don't read it, Einstein!

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Kinda a long rant.

What I would like to talk about today are hypocritical catholics/ Christians. Now before you gather the pitchforks and torches may I just say that this does not apply to all of them (just a lucky few). I have met some really decent people who believe so completely that it is hard to doubt them.


However when I was 16-17 I was in youth group with 2 girls and 3 boys. Except for one boy (who never did anything to hurt me) they were terrible people and even worse Catholics. Those fakes destroyed my faith in high school and led me down a path that I don’t think I would have chosen on my own. The people I though were good Catholics were back stabbers and gossips. Now I am not claiming to be perfect cause we all know that I am not…Yes I can be a bitch and yes I don’t take crap from people and yes I love a good gossip session but that doesn’t make me evil. What that youth group of people did was worse than anything I could have dreamed up.

A 17 year old girl stabbing her supposed best friend in the back in order to get a date with the guy she liked. A grown man emailing a 16 year old and telling her to keep it a secret from everyone including his son. A self righteous boy making fun a girl because she had a crush on him. I could go on but to be honest the details are beginning to fuzz. I lost my faith when I was 17 years old because I learned the hard way that everyone is in it for themselves. They all want something and the sooner you know what it is, the better you can protect yourself.

This sounds jaded but I am beginning to get my faith back. Something that means a lot to me. I don’t want to be that sad little girl anymore. This blog is me forgiving them. I wont forget though…its not in my nature to forget when I’ve been hurt but I do forgive them.

1 comment:

Amanda said...

I had very, very similar experiences in high school, and I lost my faith for a while too...these stories just break my heart!! And there are, sadly, SO many of them to go around. After a while I finally began to understand the fact that God and the church/Christians are NOT the same.

So excited to meet you for real and spend time with you...I think you're great, really. :-)