After a while you have to just give up. My family is falling apart and I cant save it anymore. Children shouldnt be faced with these issues. Im turning to God because I am fresh out of ideas. My dad lost $3,000 that we don't have. I don't even have that kind of money to offer to them. I dont even know what else to say. We were sinking before, but now we are done for. I cant fix this.
I have nothing good to report because not even I can find the silver lining this time. My dad has fucked us over. royally. and once again, all of us are going to pay for his mistakes.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Saturday, March 6, 2010
My last day
So tomorrow is my last day at Animal Kingdom Lodge. I am more excited for that than I could ever explain. I have DAK-Lamations on Sunday and training starts Monday. Im nervous and excited.
I interviewed for vacation planner on Wednesday. I put in for full time and part time so all I can do is wait to hear something on that.
I am also still sick. I started last tuesday with a semi sore throat, by the time my mom arrived thursday night it was pretty full blown. It pretty much sucked life that my mom and sister (lindsay) were here and I was sick for most of it. A silver lining though, my roommates. I had to call in sick and they came through for me. Its strange to me to have friends that I can trust and rely on. Also, my sisters cheerleading squad took first in their divison!
Im having a horrid mood swing this week. I hate these, I always feel depressed and wasteful with my life.And alone. That may be the worst part. I hate to feel alone, which causes me to make foolish choices...like texting ex boyfriends that I am really better off without. The 'what am i doing since graduation from high school' facebook group is also not helping. Am I the only 22 year old from Hilton that isnt married and spawning? I certainly feel that way. I have two college degrees and yet Im using neither. I worked so hard to get through college that relationships took the fall, so I am not married or have a child. Why does that make me feel like a failure? Stupid mood swings. I like feeling happy and ditzy and like myself. Deep, reflectful Jessica is not a fun person.
Anyways, I need to get to bed. 7 am will be here sooner than I think.
I interviewed for vacation planner on Wednesday. I put in for full time and part time so all I can do is wait to hear something on that.
I am also still sick. I started last tuesday with a semi sore throat, by the time my mom arrived thursday night it was pretty full blown. It pretty much sucked life that my mom and sister (lindsay) were here and I was sick for most of it. A silver lining though, my roommates. I had to call in sick and they came through for me. Its strange to me to have friends that I can trust and rely on. Also, my sisters cheerleading squad took first in their divison!
Im having a horrid mood swing this week. I hate these, I always feel depressed and wasteful with my life.And alone. That may be the worst part. I hate to feel alone, which causes me to make foolish choices...like texting ex boyfriends that I am really better off without. The 'what am i doing since graduation from high school' facebook group is also not helping. Am I the only 22 year old from Hilton that isnt married and spawning? I certainly feel that way. I have two college degrees and yet Im using neither. I worked so hard to get through college that relationships took the fall, so I am not married or have a child. Why does that make me feel like a failure? Stupid mood swings. I like feeling happy and ditzy and like myself. Deep, reflectful Jessica is not a fun person.
Anyways, I need to get to bed. 7 am will be here sooner than I think.
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