WHOA.

Recently I was reading a friends facebook statuses about her hanging out with bands and loving what she does and I realized how unhappy I am. My job sucks. I hate going and I hate doing it, its not even that its boring...which it is. It is just awful and the managers are terrible. So after work yesterday I went to casting. I am dropping down to part time and hopefully interviewing for vacation planner soon. I have to believe that God will provide for me and lead me down the right path. There is a reason I cry every day when I have to get up and go to work, so I made the necessary change in order to get me back on the right path. This year is suppose to be fun and relaxing. Not stressful and making me hate my life.

So essentially I quit. I hate being a quitter, but I honestly couldnt stay. I dont know how some of those women do it so consistantly.

I also realized that my life is so painfully ordinary that I cant stand it. Nothing is happening in my life that makes me smile, or happy. I need something big and exciting to happen. I need...I dont know, I need something. I just dont know what it is yet.